Mod 2, Day 1

I got up, looked presentable, took my traditional pictures, then made my hour and a half commute to my next site. I really hate the train in the AM during rush hour. People can be rude and ugly. Anyway. I got there early, and followed the person in and she introduced herself. This woman was just sitting in the chair and not saying anything and when I had approached who I thought was the pharmacist, the other woman was like, “oh, by the way, I’m, the pharmacist”. I was so confused. But the tech did most of the work and nobody trained me or showed me anything, so I just kind of jumped in. I went to fill a script and the pharmacist was like, “oh. You’re slow”. Excuse me? Not that you told me anything to do yet and I am just trying to figure things out on my OWN. Anyway. She continued to be rude and nasty to me and I was like thinking how miserable the next 6 weeks would be. As I was thinking that, the tech pulled me aside and said to not judge the place based on all that had happened today. I didn’t know what she meant...until the next day. But circling back, I did what I could and I was mortified because this pharmacy is definitely doing things I don’t agree with. She wanted me to check and fill the new prescriptions. Fine. But the tech does refills/quantities wrong sometimes and just said, “that’s what the insurance pays for. That’s how we bill it”. Definitely some insurance fraud going on there that I don’t want to be involved in. 

Since I had forgotten to pick up my white coat from the dry cleaner on Saturday, I was in a rush in the morning to just get it and get on my way. It wasn’t until I was at site that I realized there was a long, deep crease all down my coat. Annoying because I had already paid for it, so on my way home, I called them to ask if I could bring it in again. Mind you, the place is right next door to my apartment. So when I got there around 5:45, I showed him the coat and he said he would fix it for me. He asked if I wanted to wait now, and I said that would be fine since I live right there and then he says I can’t wait because they close in an hour. So i told him I would be there the same time tomorrow morning to get it and I had already put all my pins back on my coat, so I tried to take them off and he said not to worry and he would take them off. All I can say to that is LOL. 

Whiskey Business

Please bear in mind that I am now 2 weeks late on this blog. Shit has been happening, my dudes. We will get there though. In due time.

So Sunday July 14. I had made plans with my friend who had just graduated and taken her boards. She lives far, but is always willing to come drive to me because she’s a true and genuine friend. Really hard to come by these days. But she’s awesome. Probably my favorite person I met during my time here in Chicago. Anyway! She wanted to do a brunch, so I brought her to a place I’ve been to a few times before called Whiskey Business. They’ve got an awesome French fry bar and pretty good drinks. What I failed to mention was she is from NOLA, so the bitch knows how to drink. As for me, well, I’m kind of a lightweight these days when it comes to booze. So we ordered drinks as we sat down and just talked. It had been a while since we had been able to get together. And then she orders shots. Jesus. The place was pretty busy, and the server ended up forgetting about our shots, so he came back with shots for us and himself and said they were on him. Awesome! We talked for Munich longer and ended up having another drink before our food came. Seemed to take forever! But it was all good. Once we finished eating, we went up to the roof for a bit to check it out. Since she (unbeknownst to me) paid the check, I got our next round of shots. Was definitely feeling it at this point. Once we were done there, we Uber’d back to my place and talked some more. Then she left and I relaxed a bit because the next day was a fresh start on a new rotation.

Best ‘Lazy’ Day Ever

I had a nail appointment at 10, and I had missed the bus, so I had to Uber. This day was supposed to be a self care day due to finishing the first rotation. I had made the mani/pedi appt, then was going to get a facial, then a massage. Well the place I had gotten the groupon for the facial at had called me a few days prior to let me know I needed to get a refund because the esthetician was no longer working there. Anyway, so I got to my appt a few min late, but I still had to wait a bit until they were ready for me. I picked a super summery Tiffany blue shade for my nails, which I normally don’t do, but I said fuck it and did it. When I was finished there, I was heading to Marshall’s. I called my mom and talked to her for a bit once I got off the bus. We talked about the apartment I really liked and all logistics and about how my dad’s new obsession is killing iguanas in the backyard (it’s a FL thing).

Once I had a bite to eat, I went to the place I usually go to get a massage. I hadn’t made an appointment because usually there is just people there available. They said it would be an hour. Fine by me because I didn’t want to be walking around in the hot sun anyway, so I just sat in the AC. Then about 10 min later, there was someone who could take me. I have been to this place about a dozen times, and normally its pretty great, but this one was just ok. I wasn’t too happy with it. Then when I finish, I go to pay with my Groupon which I do every time I go there. The guy said no groupon on the weekend. That was nowhere printed in the groupon fine print and there were no signs anywhere stating this either. So I was pissed that I had to pay out of pocket.

I was debating back and forth whether to wait on this or not, but I had been wanting to get new ear piercings for a while now. I promised myself after I finished my odd modules, I would add some new bling. So I headed to the place I had researched, walked in, and the woman took my ID. The process was super quick and I think I was in and out with my piercing within 15 minutes. I got a cute rook piercing on my left ear and I can’t wait until it’s healed and I can change it out to some cute new jewelry. Once that was finished, I went to CVS to look for simply saline because from my nose piercing 10 years ago, I know that is what I used to clean it. First store didn’t have it. So I went to another CVS and they had it. I got home, relaxed for about 40 minutes, then headed to meet my friend from school at the movies. We actually met at Target and parked there to walk over to the theater to save a little money.  She had never been to this theater before, so she was impressed! I love the theater because the seats are great and the tickets are really reasonable for how nice the place is. Spiderman was great! We both really liked it. Once the movie was done, I took the train home because it was right there. I got off at my stop and waited for the bus, then looked up at the sign and realized the bus didn’t run that late. So I had to Uber home the rest of the way because I wasn’t trying to walk over a mile at almost 11 at night. I went to bed and prepared for the next day ahead because fun things were about to happen!

EOM #1

Was happy to not have to wake up for site, but still had to be up at the same time to get to school on time. We got there and had to talk about our first modules and what we liked/didn’t like, then we had to sit through some presentations. One was from the teacher who I had put on blast before,  but she talked about residency and why that is a good choice. She made some valid points, and I am thinking more and more about it with each passing day. Once that was done, we had to take a quiz. We were supposed to have worked through these practice cases already, but most of us hadn’t done them. If I can be honest here, it’s really hard to get anything done after site when you’re commuting to and from there everyday. Literally most nights I had come home from site, sat in bed for a minute, debated a shower (don’t judge me), and just went to bed because I was exhausted. Anyway, we went over the questions then we had a quiz after that. There were a few that I totally had to guess on, but eh, whatever. It has a min passing score of 70%. Then afterwards was lunch time for the next hour or so, then some of us were going to a presentation. Our school has been through a lot since I’ve been there, and we don’t have someone in the dean position. The guy who has been acting as interim dean for the last few months was the one making his speech (even though just a few months ago, he said he didn’t want this position for him to last past October). Anyway. He did a fine presentation, but I think our school needs someone from outside, not within, to be successful in that position. Just my two cents. Nobody cares anyway.

Once we were done there, we went home and were both starving because we didn’t eat much. I had brought leftovers, but they smelled bad, so I just ate the little snacks I had brought. I was debating what I wanted for lunch. Roomie went to Chipotle, but I don’t care for that, so I was considering one of those DIY pizza places. I was debating whether I wanted to go straight there, or take a nap first (because it was my roomie’s bday and we were going out later, so my old ass needs a nap). But we got home, and I decided to walk over and get a pizza. She wanted to start drinking asap, so we had a few Jell-O shots I had made for her (tequila sunrise!) and I ate my pizza so I wouldn’t be sick. Then I took a nap. A beautiful and glorious nap! Then I had to wake up and start getting ready.

My other roomie had come home and we had planned to leave together, but we are poor, so we wanted to drink a little before we left. Let’s just say we drank a lot. Oops! We ubered there and met up with everyone. It was a rooftop bar with SOOOOOO many white people. Like basic bitches everywhere. They played OK (just OK) music and we more-so just talked and enjoyed each other’s company. We stayed for about 3 hours, then I wanted to go home. So my roommate came home with me and asked to play Just Dance. We played for a bit then the other roommate came home...with like 5 people I wasn’t expecting. I had also ordered Taco Bell and was kind of embarrassed because I didn’t know anyone was coming. Oh well. Stayed and socialized for a bit then went in my bed and ate. Then went to bed!

Last Day!

Well, I got behind on this again. It’s been really busy lately and there’s about a thousand thoughts going on in my head at a time.

So I am writing about my last day of my first rotation. When I came in that day, I was mopey. And some of the DME staff noticed. They asked what was wrong and I told them I had left crying yesterday. They told me not to worry. So I was in the lab on my last day (thankfully) and it was just me and the girls in the lab. Quiet and chill day. I asked them if I could give them my updated presentation, and they said yes. We really talked all day, honestly. I am really going to miss them. I took my lunch and then came back and gave my presentation. Went MUCH better this time around because it felt more like a conversation instead of judgy eyes and breathing down my neck. Well, after the presentation, there wasn’t anything for me to make, so I said my goodbyes to the lab ladies and made my way up to the front to say goodbye. Remember that guy that had guessed my age on my first day? He came up to me as I was washing my dishes, hugged me, and said how much of a pleasure it had been having me there. I almost cried. I will miss him too.

I finally caught my favorite DME lady to talk with her and tell her what had happened the day before.  I asked if she had any appointments, she said no, then changed the sign on her door from “vacant” to “occupied”. As I sat in there and told her about the day before, I could tell she was upset and all she kept saying was how sorry she was that she wasn’t there for me (because it was her day off, not because she didn't want to be). I go on bullshitting with her and gave her the gift I had made her, and in return, she handed me a card. I could have cried. I read it on the way home. It was so sweet. Once I said goodbye to her, I told the mastectomy boutique lady about the interaction and she told me how I had been an exceptional student and basically fuck the boss lol

Then I went to the front pharmacy and I said goodbye to them. Against my better judgement, I gave the boss the gift I had made and he read the card right out in the open. Ugh. Tacky. But whatever. He was like, ‘are you out of here?’ And I said, “Yes, unless you have something else for me to do.” He said no, and I was on my way. I had missed the train, so I had to wait about 45 minutes for the next one. I went to the restaurant by the train stop, hoping they had drinks, but they didn’t, so I just sat for a bit and smiled because I had finished my first rotation. It may not sound like much to most in my class, but nobody in this class knows the struggle and how far I have come on my journey to become a pharmacist. I don’t really remember if I came home and did anything other than watch tv, but I went to bed and had to set the alarm early for the meeting the next day.

Sighhhhh

Look, I’ve been dreading writing this post. I had been caught up on this blog and was it was all going well, but last Wednesday I took a hit that really stung.

Honestly, if you don’t believe God is real, then you’re wrong. So the night before, I had looked up the train schedule so I could be there on time for my 8am meeting. I swore I knew what time I needed to be at the station, so I left the house and was on my way. I get to the station with minutes to spare, then checked the app to see if the train was running late and SHIT; I had missed the train. I was half panicking. The next train would get me there at 7:58am, but the walk over from the train is about 5 minutes (at a faster pace). I get to the station platform and there are a bunch of people there and they’re getting loud. Apparently, the train I had ‘missed’ was running about 12 minutes late (I got to the station about 10 minutes after the train was supposed to have left). So I got on the train and all was well. I had finished my presentation the night before, but I wanted to make notecards, so when I got to site, I sat on the outside picnic bench and made my cards until 8am. It was nice to be at the meeting early, since the last few I had been a few minutes late to. As we sat in the meeting, the preceptor was like, ‘Monica’s last day is tomorrow. But I have one more thing for her to do.’ Fine. He wanted me to make a coupon they could use for advertising, but wanted me to copy one of the old ones they had made in the past. This paper he handed me looked like it was photocopied a thousand times. Hard to read and looked bad. Then we went through the meeting (which seemed to last forever this time) and the marketing guy says, ‘oh, can Monica do this too before she leaves?’ I almost directly rolled my eyes at him because of him making me fucking stuff envelopes over the last 2 weeks. But the boss said no, I was already busy with other things.

Once the meeting was over, I went to the desk to work on my flyer/coupon. All of a sudden, I see the boss walking out the door and driving away...huh? I had finished this in about 30 minutes, so I was kind of just sitting there. I was finished with my presentation and the rest of my work. Then the marketing lady from the other location came and sat with me for a bit and we chatted for almost 2 hours. She said she wished she had gotten to do this with me earlier. She was telling me how the student at the other location hasn’t had to do half the work I had done and that was really annoying to me. Oh well. So when the boss came back like 3 hours later, I went to his office and asked him how the coupon was. He opened it up and liked it. He said I had done some really good work during my time there. Then he asked if I had given my presentation. I told him no because I was waiting for him. Apparently, the students in the past have made sign-up sheets for the staff to pick a time to watch the presentation. I had no idea I was supposed to do that, and he apologized and said he should have told me. So there I was. About to give this BRIEF (which is what I thought this was supposed to be) presentation to just him. Well. Here’s why I have put off writing this. I understand you’re busy and have a lot going on all the time, but I could tell there was little to no interest in my presentation by the way he was answering the phone and texts throughout my presentation. At that point, I didn’t really care, and I just wanted to finish it. As I mentioned, I kept it brief. Once I was done, he expressed how disappointed he was in my presentation. My heart dropped into my stomach and I had to just sit there while he shit on my presentation. Did I think it was my best presentation ever? Hell no. But was it disappointing? I didn’t think so. Then he proceeded to tell me how he expected so much more from me because I am so smart and blah blah. As I am just sitting here in his office trying not to cry. Then he decides it’s time to do my evaluations because he can’t be bothered to do them the following day.

So he basically said I did fine. He said I walked in COCKY my first day...if you can recall, I started on a THURSDAY and he didn’t come in until the following WEDNESDAY. So how TF would he know if I was cocky? So I wasn’t just gonna let him shit on me. I told him, “when you called a few weeks ago, you asked if I had retail experience. I said yes. You asked if I had compounding experience. I said yes. If that is cocky, then I am sorry.” Then he goes on to say how the little prick in charge of DME said I was ‘disinterested’ in their inventory thing he really wanted me to do. First the fuck of all. That dude ‘trained’ me for all of 3 minutes and said to me, “I don’t expect you to remember any of this”.  So when I was doing the inventory the next time, he had set me up for a section, I did some of them wrong, and I kept having to ask questions and he seemed annoyed with me, so I only did that task about 30 minutes. Second the fuck of all, I did not go to school for 10+ years to do your inventory bullshit and I am definitely more advanced than that shit. I’m sorry. The conversation continues and he says, ‘I don’t know how you did in the lab, but I’m assuming it was ok.’ OK?! I was literally making advanced shit my second day in the lab. You can shit on me and tell me I’m a disappointment, but I know I was putting in quality work in the lab. So we finished the evaluation, I still ended up with an A. But that shit hurt my character. So I told him I would bulk up the presentation a bit and give it to the girls in the lab tomorrow. You know what he says to me, “They’re not gonna have time to listen to you.” So with that, I asked him if there was anything else he needed, I gathered my stuff, turned the corner, and balled the whole way to the train. No matter how many times people told me I was gonna be fine, that shit really hurt.

So on the way home, I still had to stop and get the stuff I wanted to make for the gifts for the next day, even though I felt totally defeated. I then went and and bought a bunch of food then ate my feelings and went to bed. For I had to go in with a smile on my face for the last day.

Dwindling Days

Almost my last day in the lab. The tech saved a gummy for me to make, so yay! Something different. I did that, poured it like a champ, then spent a lot of the day talking with the girls back there. I feel like I always do this: I don’t open up and talk to the people I’m working with until I’m basically gone. But regardless. It was still nice talking to them. I sat for lunch, wasn’t really hungry, and did a few more scripts when I got back. She told me to catch the 2:50 train out, so I was happy to oblige. Since I was done so early, I stopped by to get my eyebrows done on the way home. The lady was, again, eating when I got there, so it was kind of rude she made me wait. But oh well. She did a good job, then I walked over to Wendy’s because I was starving by then. My roommates and I were gonna go to Chick fil A for free sandwiches, but I really didn’t know when they were going to be home. So I got food. I kind of relaxed in bed for a few hours after that until they got home. By the time we were gonna leave, it was almost over for the free sandwiches, so we just went out to the burbs for food. On the way, I was talking to my roommate about the place that I saw and really liked. She said she wanted to see it. Then she mentioned how we’ve had so much fun while we have lived together and gotten into so much shit that we all wouldn’t have done otherwise. Nostalgia.

So there was a Marshall’s in the plaza, so we went there first, then we got our food. I sat down to eat and she was throwing something in the oven, so I pulled up the place so she could see the pictures. She liked it. I don’t know if I have mentioned this, but we were looking for apartments on our own because she had said she and the boyfriend might be moving in together. So the place I saw, I would have needed roommates. She said to me, ‘look; it’s expensive for something by myself. Let’s just stay together’. So that was cool so I don’t have to find some random roommates. I reached out to the guy that showed it to me to see if she could go see it tomorrow (which is actually today because that’s when I am writing this). I still had not finished the damn presentation I was assigned weeks ago, so I stayed up to finish that and went to bed. I was going to take the early train in the morning, so I tried to go to bed as early as I could.

Last Week!

On Monday, I was doing DME. I think the whole store was still catching up from the shortened hours for the holiday. But it was really busy! The busiest day I’ve had on the floor so far. I tried to help patients on my own with what I could, but there’s some stuff I chose to leave to the pros. We went on with the day and I am really gonna miss one of the ladies I worked closely with. Throughout the day, people kept coming up and asking if I made the cupcakes because they loved them. Yay. Give me that A I deserve! Just kidding...kind of. But the day went by pretty fast, so that was good. It was around 5:15 and I was sitting on the couches because there were no customers. The boss came out of his office and was like, ‘aren’t you going to miss your train?’ I couldn’t believe he’d asked me that after the whole ‘make sure you’re getting in all of your hours’ speech a few weeks prior. So since it died down, I decided to go. Well he was in the back and wanted to ask me stuff about what I had learned that day. So I go through a few interactions I had and he says, ‘ok...but here’s what I would have done differently’. I hate that. But I guess I am here to learn, so that’s that. This conversation went on for no reason, and I was starting to get antsy because I didn’t want to miss the train. I didn’t, but it was close.

I was starving when I got home, and I knew I was going to try and stay on track, so I made some tortillas and ‘cheese sauce’ for the turkey meat I had made last weekend. I really have good intentions on this diet, but I can’t get it right. I scarfed down the ‘tacos’ because I was so hungry, but it was forcing myself to eat. I wanted to go to bed because I was hungry, so I showered and went to bed.

House Hunters Episode 500 (I am Exaggerating)

So I woke up early because I was taking the bus to the place to see in the AM. Bus schedules are so hit or miss on Sundays. When I got to the place, the guy was outside waiting for me. The unit was a garden unit, so basically that means basement with small windows. When I walked into this place, I thought I was going to die. It was evident that guys lived there. Dishes everywhere, dishwasher open, it was just awful. Went into the rooms and tried to walk around all the shit on the floor and then I saw a bathroom and the color inside the sink was something of nightmares. It was bad. Then the guy showing the place also kind of rushed the whole thing because he was showing another place afterwards.

Once I was finished there, I went to the store to return some stuff, then ended up buying a bunch more shit. I know, I have a problem. I had planned to bake some cupcakes for the staff at my site, so I had to go get the ingredients. When I was done, I got home and was relaxing. I knew I needed to start on the cupcakes, but I was being lazy. Once I started the cupcakes, I realized I didn’t have enough of some stuff. By that time, it was almost 10. Texted the roommates to ask if they were out and could pick up the stuff I needed, but they were busy. So I took the bus to the grocery store and got what I needed. I get back and realize I needed a lemon too. Ugh. Well I just ended up using what I had. I made pretty cupcakes that were lemon flavored with strawberry frosting. I was excited to share my talent with these people. I went to bed far too late, again, for no reason, but back at it Monday.

Did I Find My New Place???

I finally had a day off and slept in until like 8:45. That felt good. I lounged around in bed for a while before I was going to go see a place. I had to Uber there, and I was late, so when I got there, I was confused as to where to go. I called, and they picked up so I got to where I needed to be. The area felt significantly safer than the one I’d seen last week. He showed me a 2/2, which was just eh. The one bedroom was too small. Then we went to the unit I had come there to see. It was a 3/2.5 and it was stunning. I really loved it. I need to find roommates now. So once I was done there, I had to go to TJ Maxx to return some stuff. I went to Marshall’s first since I was on that side of the street. Mistake. $190 later...then I went across the street to do my returns. Finished up there and called an Uber home. I wanted to stop by Kohl’s on the way so I could complete my Amazon return. Glad to get that done When I got home, I watched tv and ate dinner. Nothing special. Just hung out. Still just sitting here watching tv in my messy ass room and wondering how shitty it’s going to be in the next few weeks when I have to pack this all up to move. FML. Alarm is set for tomorrow and I am seeing two more places. Bye!

Last Friday Here

I went to bed far too late last night and for no absolute reason. I think when I finally turned off the tv, it was after 12:30 am. I woke up this morning tired, so I set the alarm to snooze for 30 min. I got a text after 20 min, so I was basically awake after that. My binge yesterday made me go up another lb, but I am back on track today. I’ve had about 64 oz of water so far and it’s before noon. Anyway. So I got ready and went to walk to the bus. I really should get better at checking the times, but since I live on a busy street, the buses are usually running fairly one after another, so I usually don’t have to wait too long. I was walking to the stop this morning when the bus was there stopped at the red light before where the actual stop was. I knew I had to haul ass through the crosswalk to catch this bus. As I approached the red light, the driver already had the door open for me. I thanked him and he said, “I know my regulars!” So I put my stuff down then paid my fare. That was really nice for him to do. I think he was also the driver that saw me almost fall getting onto the bus one morning that I was totally out of it, got off the bus thinking it was my stop, looked up and my stop was the next one. I don’t know. Sometimes it be like that. Once I got to the stop, I thanked him again and he said, ‘see you Monday!’  Really nice way to start the day. I got on the train and pulled out the book I was supposed to have read by today and started it. I hate that I’ve had to read these books because honestly, I haven’t cared for the writing styles of most of these authors. Maybe 3 or so I actually enjoyed. Oh well.

When I got to site, they were having a meeting in the DME side because of a bad review a customer posted to google last weekend. Thank God I wasn’t here for that. But the meeting was with the boss and it was almost like he was talking to children at first. The meeting lasted about 15 min, and from then on, I’ve been sitting in this office finishing up my book because I have to present the Paleo diet to my preceptor today. Joy.

I went in to ask when he wanted me to present, and he said whenever. So since I had to focus on the one book, I kind of didn’t read the other one. In previous weeks, he has led the discussions. Well, he kept asking me questions about the one I hadn’t read, so I looked like an idiot. That didn’t feel great. But I blew it out of the water on the Paleo book...well at least I would have if he hadn’t answered texts, phone calls, and opened all the mail while I was speaking. It was really disrespectful, but who am I? I am not allowed to say anything. Anyway. After that, I shadowed the tech a while more and since they were closing at 5, I left to catch the 4:30 train, so I wouldn’t have to wait until 5:30.

I got home and wanted to nap in the worst way. We were going out to dinner for my roommate’s sister’s bday, but I really didn’t have the energy to get any kind of dolled up. I relaxed for a few hours and then got ready and was ready at the time we agreed on. We got to the restaurant on time and were the first ones there. The others showed up a few min later. Now I have been to this place before and the last time, it was so crowded that it was hard to get to our table. This place is so fucking expensive, for just ok food and it being uncomfortably crowded. And this time...it was hot too. Terrible experience. But anyway. I was being a good sport. So I wanted to go home and play Just Dance for a bit. I decided I wanted a drink (and others were happy I drank too) so we played for a while, I killed it, did some interesting texting, and went to bed.

“You Look Like the 4th of July”...

Happy 4th! When I went to bed last night, I set out to sleep in past 8am. Surely I did. I woke up at 8:02. FML. 96% sleep quality though! So I sat there in bed on social media until like 9:30 when I remembered Stranger Things had premiered! I watched them. All of them. I didn’t really eat, but I drank so much water in an effort to flush out the mistakes from last night. I went up exactly 1 lb, so I was just happy it wasn’t more. I ended up finishing ST3 and made something with the Cricut that I had been trying to make for a while. Didn’t turn out right, so I had to print it again. But then it worked and I love how it turned out. I drank so much water omg. So I looked up and it was like 7 and I decided to eat. Roommates and I had said we were gonna play Just Dance, so I ate and then set it up. We played for about an hour and we had a good time. Then my one roommate said she was going to Taco Bell, and I can’t resist, so I got a couple things. Hoping the exercise and all the water will combat it, but back on track tomorrow. I then took a shower, and now I’m sitting here writing this, watching The Goldberg’s, and looking at the book I was supposed to have read by tomorrow that I haven’t even opened yet. Oh well. Let’s hope tomorrow flies by!

Another Day in Paradise

I got an email on the way to site asking where I was that day from the marketing guy that made me stuff envelopes last week. So FML. Thankfully, there was no meeting, so I was able to sleep in a bit. When I got there, he was sitting at the desk I was at last week with a notebook highlighting stuff. He was just like, ‘are you ready?’ I had to stop myself from rolling my eyes, and tbh, it might have happened a few times. Basically it was the same shit. But he had me start with addressing all the envelopes saying how, ‘he had never seen someone with as good of penmanship as me’ which I call bullshit on, but oh well. So I did what I was asked of me while he stuffed the envelopes next to me. He told me I could listen to music if I wanted to, so I put in my AirPods then the dude kept asking me shit. Huh? Lol He had gone to the post office to grab stamps in the midst of me addressing, then came back and continued to stuff. I finished addressing and all of a sudden he leaves to ‘go make copies’ aka finish this shit yourself. So I did it really quick then sat there. He came back, thanked me, and left. I wish I had been able to go at that time too, but I didn’t. Instead, the boss basically ignored me all day, so I sat there and worked on my presentation for next week. Then I got bored, and was basically just sitting there. I had too much time to think, so I texted the guy. Turns out I wasn’t ghosted. The pharmacy was closing at 4, so I went in to the boss’ office around 3:30 to ask if it was ok to take the next train out at 3:50 instead of having to wait so long. He just told me to do what I needed to do. I hate when people are smug.

Then I got home and was just feeling so relieved that I did not have to go to site the next day. I really hadn’t eaten either. Just a handful of almonds on the train home. I sat here in my room just doing nothing and then stumbled onto Uber Eats and next thing I knew it, I had ordered Cuban food. Which pissed me off because when I had stepped on the scale in the morning, I had lost 5 lb. So I was pissed at myself for doing that. But couldn’t stop there. I went to 7-11 and basically had a binge. FML. I went to bed at a decent time for once, although I was feeling like shit from eating like shit.

Only Lab Day This Week

So the tech was really trying to have me make things I haven’t made during this rotation yet. So I made puppy treats! I guess they give them as samples when dogs come in with owners to get scripts. Pretty cool. So that was fun to do. Easier than I thought they would be. After that, I filled a few orders and made a couple creams. I feel like we’re in the isolation cabin when I work in the lab, but I sure am gonna miss lab days.

She told me to take the 2:50 train, so around 2, I sat in the office and was supposed to be getting work done, but I went on Zillow for a bit. I found a place that had just been listed within the hour and holy shit it looked nice. I tried to call and schedule a viewing, but there’s no reception in the lab. I got my stuff and called right as I was walking outside. She called me back on the train and I was gonna see the place. I wanted to get home and put in some laundry before I left, so I did that and relaxed for like 20 minutes. The exhaustion is fucking real lately. So I called a Lyft and told the guy I needed to be there by a certain time. I had done a shared ride, but he declined adding riders to the trip. Cool. I was gonna make it on time. Then the dude picks someone up DOWNTOWN. Like why. It’s after 5. Anyway, he then proceeded to drive the wrong way on a one way street. Once he dropped me off, I was kind of alarmed. The area of this apartment was not great. I did not feel too safe. I went inside then had to apologize for being 10 minutes late, but the apartment was SO nice. I am sad because I don’t know if I can get past the bad location. I had another apartment to see as well after that.

At the other place, the lady was about 10 minutes late. I had to pee so badly. Once she got there with her 2 kids, I realized that’s why she was late. The apartment was old. Pretty spacious common areas though. So basically, back to the drawing board. I was heading home and I walked across the street to the bus stop. Then it started pouring. I got on the bus and looked up and realized I was on the wrong bus. I had to turn around. Then I had to cross the street and it was slippery and I had sandals on and it was pouring, so that was not fun. Talked to my mom on the way home for a bit. Then I came home, put in some laundry, and debated skipping dinner again. No appetite. I forced myself to have some eggs and a veggie patty. Sitting here writing this, going to finish the laundry, and head to bed. My life is average.

2 More Weeks!

It didn’t last long. I fell asleep last night before writing this. I will be better.

Yesterday, I was on the floor on the DME side. I really haven’t had high hopes for a good experience up front, other than the fact that the employees are really fun to be around (a couple of them). So a new person started. She was doing a lot of training, so not much time on the floor, but she boasted about having all this experience with most of the stuff they carry here, so she seems promising. Anyway. I sat in on a compression sock fitting for a girl that was 8 and 1/2 months pregnant. She was really nice though. She is a nurse practitioner, so she understood how insurance works, which is honestly refreshing. So many times people come into a pharmacy with a prescription from their doctor and when we run it and it’s not covered, they’ll say something like, ‘well why would my doctor write me a script for this then?’ Some people live clueless and under a rock.

Moving on, had a few more interactions with people on the floor and sat in on another fitting. This was an older woman who has been getting the runaround from a few surgeons. The poor woman had this one bulging vein and the first doctor she saw said she didn’t need surgery, and the second one wants her to wear the compression for 3 months and reassess. The woman had really done research and was aware of her medications. She then asked me some pharmacy questions, which I surprisingly knew the answers to! The tech I was with said how happy she was that I was in the room with them because I was able to help. It was a really positive interaction and I am happy about that! As I was getting ready to leave, I stopped by the boss’ office just to double check if we were having a meeting Wednesday morning since he is not there on Tuesdays. When we talked last week at the meeting, we discussed not doing a meeting due to the holiday week. We never really got a for sure answer, because that’s just how he is. So he proceeded to call the marketing guy that made me stuff envelopes last week and was like, ‘Monica was under the impression we aren’t having a meeting this week...what did we decide?’ Seriously?! Throw me under the bus much?? That really pissed me off. But the outcome was no meeting. So yay.

So I left around 5:15 to catch the 5:30 train home. Train ride home was mundane and then I got home and just felt really blah. I began a diet today, and was still full from lunch by the time I got home. I played around on social media for a while and sat there feeling sorry for myself because this dude ghosted me. I sometimes feel like I’ll be single forever. Oh well. Guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats. Thanks, Taylor. But I ended up not being hungry, so I took a shower and went to bed. Of course I did not get things from my checklist done that I needed to, but here we are.